Thursday, April 24, 2008

No Complaining Here

I'm wearing a purple bracelet. I move it from one wrist to the other every time I complain, gossip, or use negative words. I have to go 21 days without switching it over to the other wrist. I started yesterday and I've already switched it probably about 50 or more times. Maybe less, but I really doubt it. It is suppose to take someone 21 days to form or break a new habit. Tomorrow I will start over at day 1 of my 21 toward my new habit.

It's called "A Complaint Free World." It started with a pastor challenging his congregation to not complain for 21 days. He is the only one that succeeded and it took him 3 or 4 months.
Here over the past few months I have really noticed my negativity toward everything and anything. It seemed that every time I opened my mouth, nothing good was coming out of it. I figure I would give this a shot. What can it hurt? It is definitely making me think before I start to speak. I actually turned around today when I realized the only reason I was going to talk to someone was to gossip. That is not who I want to be. Do I believe I will never complain again or whine? No. But if I make an effort to watch what comes out of my mouth, whether it be, "I wish I wasn't here, I just feel like crap today." Or. "Did you see what she did yesterday, I just can't believe it....!" I think it might make myself more aware of what is oozing out of my mouth.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Weenie dog rancher or professional bacon test taster?

I change my mind, a lot. It's who I am. I want everything and anything, so I go back and forth with ideas, dreams and so on. Of course somethings stay constant, like my love for Brady, my family, friends and the girls. I also still love bacon even though I'm trying not to looove bacon too much. Weight watchers and all. But the biggest change lately is I'm back on the path of deciding what I want to be when I grow up. I've decided to not pursue Social Work. My heart was not into it. I hadn't even started, but just knew. I didn't want to waste my time or others. I'm also trying to decide if going back to school is even what I want to do. Biology kicked my butt to the curb. So I've been thinking/dreaming....what does CharlyGirl want to be?

When I was little I wanted to be a waitress, marine biologist and a nature photographer? see what I mean. Here is my list (I heart lists) from my new quest "What do I want to be when I grow up and what can I do in the mean time?"

*My dream for a few years and one that keeps coming back to me is to open my little shop. That's what I call it anyways. It would have everything that I love. Sparkling trinkets, postcards that you just have to buy for your best friend, miniatures of anything and everything and just about anything else that if I walked by, I would go, "I LOVE that!" There would also be a goofy photo booth, a area for fresh flowers that you could take home for your dinner table and an area with all the necessary items to plan a awesome party/shower/wedding. Oh yeah, cupcakes would be available on a daily basis for my customers to munch on while the browse. They could then buy the components of the cupcake if they desired, the sprinkles, tins, etc. So MANY ideas.
This is what I want. This is what I dream of. This will be in my future, someday, just not right now.

*Create, Create and Create some more. Once I get over my lazy nights on the couch, I'm heading back to making "stuff." Anything to get my creative side going. I might even break open the sewing machine. Be looking for a post about an Etsy shop in the future. I'm not out to make money with this, just to get my hands moving and brain working. Creating is what I love to do.

*I woke up the other night and this was the phrase that was left in my mind. I should be an art teacher. I need to research this one a little bit more. It would mean going back to school. I'm attracted to the idea of helping small town kids express themselves through art. I did not have this advantage in grade school or even high school. Thank goodness for USAO. I think I would be good at this, especially with younger ones.

There are many more possibilities out there. Yes, I have a job currently, but I want to look back in a few years and be able to say that I'm passionate about my profession and I can't wait to go to work in the morning. A little dreamy? Yeah, but it's my dream.