Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Weenie dog rancher or professional bacon test taster?

I change my mind, a lot. It's who I am. I want everything and anything, so I go back and forth with ideas, dreams and so on. Of course somethings stay constant, like my love for Brady, my family, friends and the girls. I also still love bacon even though I'm trying not to looove bacon too much. Weight watchers and all. But the biggest change lately is I'm back on the path of deciding what I want to be when I grow up. I've decided to not pursue Social Work. My heart was not into it. I hadn't even started, but just knew. I didn't want to waste my time or others. I'm also trying to decide if going back to school is even what I want to do. Biology kicked my butt to the curb. So I've been thinking/dreaming....what does CharlyGirl want to be?

When I was little I wanted to be a waitress, marine biologist and a nature photographer? Hmmmm.....you see what I mean. Here is my list (I heart lists) from my new quest "What do I want to be when I grow up and what can I do in the mean time?"

*My dream for a few years and one that keeps coming back to me is to open my little shop. That's what I call it anyways. It would have everything that I love. Sparkling trinkets, postcards that you just have to buy for your best friend, miniatures of anything and everything and just about anything else that if I walked by, I would go, "I LOVE that!" There would also be a goofy photo booth, a area for fresh flowers that you could take home for your dinner table and an area with all the necessary items to plan a awesome party/shower/wedding. Oh yeah, cupcakes would be available on a daily basis for my customers to munch on while the browse. They could then buy the components of the cupcake if they desired, the sprinkles, tins, etc. So MANY ideas.
This is what I want. This is what I dream of. This will be in my future, someday, just not right now.

*Create, Create and Create some more. Once I get over my lazy nights on the couch, I'm heading back to making "stuff." Anything to get my creative side going. I might even break open the sewing machine. Be looking for a post about an Etsy shop in the future. I'm not out to make money with this, just to get my hands moving and brain working. Creating is what I love to do.

*I woke up the other night and this was the phrase that was left in my mind. I should be an art teacher. I need to research this one a little bit more. It would mean going back to school. I'm attracted to the idea of helping small town kids express themselves through art. I did not have this advantage in grade school or even high school. Thank goodness for USAO. I think I would be good at this, especially with younger ones.

There are many more possibilities out there. Yes, I have a job currently, but I want to look back in a few years and be able to say that I'm passionate about my profession and I can't wait to go to work in the morning. A little dreamy? Yeah, but it's my dream.


Elizabeth said...

I agree totally with the "not that into it" thing. When I finally decided that nursing school was not for me, it was one of the hardest things I did. I lost over 2 years of college credits when I transferred to Human Resources.

Looking back, I never regretted a single moment after shedding those horrible blue scrubs. To think, nw I can't even watch my sister put a band-aid on my nephew. Go Figure! What WW attendee looks good in baggy blue jammie pants all day anyway?

PS: I miss you. When are you coming home for a visit?

not so zen momma said...

You need to come back to Book Group. Jess, Liz and I had the same discussion.

I think I want to be a comedy writer or food critic or textile designer or stay-at-home mom or working mom or...